Words cannot fully express the pain of losing a child, no matter the age. I've had a taste of this kind of heartache when I briefly held my grandson who was born without a heartbeat at 36 weeks. I will always miss him.

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My prayer is that the truth in this "song of lament" will be of some comfort to anyone who is struggling with the real, raw, and immense emotions that accompany grief.

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Right now, I am thinking of the parents of the little girls from Camp Mystic in Texas.

Hear the Lord whisper, "I'm holding you both."

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I'm Holding You Both

O my

O, my God

O, my God, no!

A heart of sorrow, tears of pain-

This, my God, is more than a sting.

Where's the victory?

Where's the hope?

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I'm holding onto life,

I'm holding onto life,

I'm holding onto Life,

I'm holding onto Christ...

He gently whispers, "I'm holding you both."

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A heart of sadness, tears remain,

An earthly loss for a heavenly gain??

And this is the story that You wrote?!

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I'm holding onto life,

I'm holding onto life,

I'm holding onto Life,

I'm holding onto Christ...

He sweetly whispers, "I'm holding you both."

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A heart of aching, tears make stains,

Tears of anguish well up again-

I'm trusting, trusting - but help me cope!

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I'm holding onto life,

I'm holding onto life,

I'm holding onto Life,

I'm holding onto Christ...

He softly whispers, "I'm holding you both."

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A heart of longing, tears untamed,

Release, hold on, release again-

God, assure me she's dancing to the song you wrote:

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"I'm holding onto Life,

I'm holding onto Life,

I'm holding onto Life,

I'm holding onto Christ!"

As you sing to me, "I'm holding you both."

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O my

O, my God

O my God, help me say... "Yes."

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All things were created by Him and for Him  (Col. 2:!6)

There is freedom in the outstretched wings of an eagle.

There is freedom in the stars and the stripes;

There is freedom in one nation under God's guidance;

There is freedom forever in Christ.         

There is freedom in the downpour of rain on the earth;

There is freedom in the ocean wave’s rolling ride;

There is freedom in a river flowing forever onward;

There is freedom forever in Christ.

There is freedom in the blossom of spring’s first flower;

There is freedom in the butterfly’s flitty flight;

There is freedom in the song of the sweet red birds;

There is freedom forever in Christ.  

There is freedom in the first steps out of a dungeon;

There is freedom in allowing a caged bird to fly;

There is freedom when any stronghold is broken,

There is freedom forever in Christ.

There is freedom in the all-out race of an athlete;

There is freedom in the dancer’s twirl of graceful might;

There is freedom in performing any God –given talent;

There is freedom forever in Christ.

There is freedom in bellowing out a favorite love song;

There is freedom in one long blubbering cry;

There is freedom in gut-wrenching, knee-slapping laughter with a friend;

There is freedom forever in Christ.

There is freedom in a hammock beneath a thriving shade tree;

There is freedom in a screen porch with a chair, rocking, inside;

There is freedom in a lazy, old, painted bench swing;

There is freedom forever in Christ.

There is freedom in a newborn’s first plea for a start on this earth;

There is freedom in finding God’s call for one's life;

There is freedom in a believer’s last breath that he takes;

There is freedom forever in Christ.

Chris Baxter

September 2001

Foundation of Love

May every floorboard of every room be founded on the love of Jesus Christ;

in Him alone we will not be shaken.

Walls of Joy

May the joyful and contagious laughter of the abundant life of Christ ring

throughout the walls of our home.

Ceilings of Peace

May You seal each room, dear Father, with Your sweet blanket of peace,

and may Your protective hand rest on our rooftop.

Hallways and Stairways of Patience

Please give me Your patience with each child as they pass through

each of the stages and phases of growth. Also, please fill my children's hearts with

genuine patience towards one another as they walk life together.

Windows of Kindness and Doorways of Goodness

May all who look into this home be enthralled by Your warming light;

and when these welcomed guests enter in, may the feel surrounded by

the goodness of Your love.

Playrooms and Schoolrooms of Gentleness

May Your tender touch abound in the hearts of my children as the play, learn,

and live together. And dear Father, may I lead gently--the way You so

gently lead me.

Bedrooms of Faithfulness

Please bless our marriage with a beautiful love for one another--the kind

You planned from the beginning. And may my children's bedrooms never be

a place of secrecy; rather, a sanctuary, filled with quiet times with

their faithful Redeemer.

Kitchen of Self-control

May You be the King of the kitchen, not me.

And as we gather around our table, may we feast on Your abundant

grace and love.

AMEN.